Photography has always been a key ingredient in my life. It has been unexplained in many ways and the obsession never really made sense, I just knew it was the thing that drove me most. But like a sex drive might die, or radically shift, so has my passion for trawling through internet archives. This may be a reflection on my attitude towards my own work, it might take into account that I am faced with predictable f stops and to my mind pointless telephoto lenses on a daily basis. It might have something to do with where I see my efforts going. But something has changed.
The photograph has limits and I think that is where my interest in the world of photography is slowly fading. I would see a book in production and it feels as if I have seen it all. I have seen a landscape, I have seen what a person looks like, I have seen what a lamp looks like.
It is an act so reliant on subject, I begin to wonder if the subject makes the photographer in today's attitude towards photography. I spent many hours writing about the still life works, with no real goal at the end of it. A lot of the thoughts around photography have come from frustration.
Perhaps it is the nature of the way we deal with the subject in the growing swarm of excited talents looking to get some form of attention.
It is a rat race I have no interest in entering.
But that is beside the point in this instance. This is more to do with the frustration of photography being the primary source of inspiration. And it has a lot to do with the traditional conventions placed upon the photographic series.
I found the subjects around me, the environment rarely makes me need to photograph. It has usually been a process of going out to a scene and photographing something new, but the magic has gone when I am looking for new work to discuss. When I write for certain things I hold my tongue on my real thoughts and I am kind towards things that would not always catch my eye right away. But if you waffle on enough people will believe you.
Add a few vague metaphors in and it pretends to be legitimate thought.
The very act of taking pictures will never escape my interest. That is something rooted into my general day to day life. Although I would not be taking pictures, its a bit like riding a bike, you never really forget how to do it. The camera is a tool, yes, it is a way in. It is an excuse. All these elements are positive, but photography alone is not enough anymore.
There is something missing here.
When I think about creating or responding to subjects there is another alternative way of looking at things. The image does not always need to be placed correctly, it does not always need a neat surrounding to keep it in line.
Creativity or products of that type of thought do not need constraints or guidelines. It would be a stifling of creativity if this were the case. To my mind the photograph needs another element, another practice, another medium to make it feel like a genuine reaction. To fit all of our ideas on the world into a photograph seems somewhat restricting. It is only a photograph after all. It is flat and rests against a wall in a correctly made frame.
It is a tool to capture. It does allow us to pass on information, but how far can it really go on its own in depicting everything.
Maybe it is down to my frustrations with the medium that lead me to these ideas but I can't shake the feeling that there is more required to make an interesting comment.
To write, to discuss, is to dwell and if we strip it all down photography is an act that we all do on a daily basis. Not everyone can play the piano, for example, not everyone can create an incredible painting, but with enough time dedicated you can become a very equipped photographer. After all, we are only using a recording device.
This is not to belittle photography's best efforts though.
Photography will never fade, at least for me, but it move and shift into different forms.
The medium of art is a vague but exciting corner to take when we think about our dedication to the medium of photography.
Why are we always secluded to one spot when there are many other tools to record the idea in a more useful way?